Made a lot of extremely bad decisions yesterday and had 3 very bad, almost detrimental trades which almost made me reconsider everything for a second and has made me shed a tear for the first time in my trading journey.

2 days ago, I was about to have the worst trade of my life on AMZN for something that was completely illegitimate. I've risked over half of my trading portfolio and kept averaging down instead of setting my pride aside and taking the loss. At one point, I was down a third of the profits I've made thusfar in MONTHS of hard work and was going to see everything vanish within seconds, because of 2 bad decisions that I made; the first one being clicking the bottom too early, and the second being not clicking it early enough. Thankfully, it ended up being a winning trade, but that was only thanks to my good luck rather than anything else. 

Which brings me to yesterday... I had a terrible feeling before trading on that day and was still feeling a bit sour after the day before's events. All 3 trades I made were completely illegitimate and I should've stopped after the first one or even better; I shouldn't have traded at all and taken a step back for the day. By the time I was done, I was completely emotionally drained and physically tired.

Looking back, I realize how foolish I was and how costly simple mistakes can be. While I'm still not completely over it, I take this opportunity to learn from these (stupid) mistakes and hopefully one day, I'll learn to have full control over my emotions to be on the right side of the trade.