I've been at this for 9-10 months now. I've seen a ton of dvds, taken notes, watched a bunch of videos and am almost always in the webinars and if i miss them I watch em later. The point is that I study. I still don't get it. I have a spread sheet and I write down my trade ideas and what I did, wrong and right. I'm fairly meticulous. I've been waking up at 5:30 am PST daily to be prepared for the open. 

This 16% winning on my wall is not accurate but it might as well be. I've lost nearly 9k, 7k on the course, and over 500$ in paper trading since I got scared out of using real money. I am consistent when it comes to losing. I don't know how any of you do it. I thought i was smart. I thought I was better than this. I lose small but I win smaller. I've just lost 10ish in a row (I say ish because on my 8th trade I made 2$). Thank god it's just paper trading but it's messing with me psychologically. 

I have absolutely lost all confidence in this moment. I was even on $FSNN, Tim's overnight winner, and I only made 2$ after "commissions". I'm lost. Again. Always. I'm at the end of my rope. I've invested almost a year into this and thousands of $ and it looks like at then end of it this might be a right off instead of my key to freedom.

Just needed to vent in a public space so I could fell like a whiner and push myself to do more. I'm gonna hit the books in a sec.