The beginning of 2021 was by far my best trading when the markets were hot. I though they were getting to hot that a top was in the near future for the markets in general. 4-5 months into the year I started to learn how to short via put options. Instead of being a disciplined trader and trade small for learning purposes I decided to follow alerts for easy money. I immediately went from the top of my game to a alert hungry trader. I am ashamed of how far down this rabbit hole I went. Before this I would have to shut down the chat room and trade whats on my watchlist with my thesis and plans in place prior to the day. After I became reliant on a chat room for ideas. I became lazy. I became a loser and have been losing ever sense. I became part of the 95%. I am writing this now because I want it in writing. I want this to be on my wall. I want this to be the turning point to my previous success that I lost. I am not giving up. Even in this tough market. I am off of twitter and out of the chat rooms. I am making my watchlist. I am creating a plan and I am trading small to get some conviction back into myself. I AM NOT DONE AND I WILL COME BACK FROM THIS!