I write this to document for myself the struggles and triumphs in my journey.

In case anyone was wondering, I just returned this week to trading from a couple weeks of absolute hell. 

My husband had his wisdom teeth removed 12/20/17. Little did we know this oral surgery would trigger a severe, fast-spreading, and often deadly infection called Ludwig's Angina (Angina means "strangulation" in this situation, not anything to do with the heart). 

Long story short; after three days of excessive pain and increasing difficulty swallowing and breathing we finally made it to the hospital (his oral surgeon ignored our concerns for a couple days). His throat had closed so much he only had about 15 more minutes before he would have been lost. He was intubated after surgery to drain the absesses of his throat and sedated in the ICU for over a week. I never left his side for more than 30 minutes (one meal a day, and a paper towel/hand soap bath in the bathroom there, and I never got more than 3 hours of sleep each night-20 minutes at a time). I had to physically restrain him as he constantly fought in his hallucinogenic half-sleep state. I'd stand by his bed for hours at a time trying to calm his trapped mind with soothing words. It was a very physically and mentally demanding two weeks.  

The recovery period will be a long one, and I will have more things I have to take on because of this...

But, in spite of all that, I had the desire and made the effort to study as much as was possible. No days off! I really missed being able to watch the markets, especially since I had been feeling good about what I was learning and noticing from all that screen time before this plot twist. I managed to watch about 8 videos in that time...which doesn't seem like much, but I am grateful I managed what I did in spite of the impossibility of the situation with his constant needs.

I have the drive to do what needs to be done. Sacrificing now for a brighter future for my family is something I proved, again that I am capable of, and willing to do. My husband and I talked about it all when he woke up. We are both more determined than ever to make this happen. Events like this always change our perspectives one way or another.

I am just eternally grateful for this chance to continue and push harder with my husband, it could have so easily been the end of the dream. 

NEVER GIVE UP.

So, I may be a little rusty this week (you can see it in my trades), but I'm diving back in with new vigor. Wish me luck!