It's been almost two months since I have written my last blog.  It's been rough.  Events in my life went from bad to worse.  

     My mom's cancer took a turn for the worse at the beginning of October.  Within one week we went from palliative care to hospital to hospice.  She passed away on October 14, 2020 two weeks shy of her 75th birthday.  I was with her when she took her last breath, and I am very thankful for that.  Somehow it made her passing easier to deal with.

     I spent the rest of my time helping my dad take care of her arrangements.  We planned a memorial out of town and we spent a few days with family.  It was especially tough planning the memorial during a pandemic, and I wish we could have had more people there.  My mom was an amazing woman. She was always serving her community, her church, and her friends.  She taught me independence and inclusion.  She was excited for me when I decided to take up trading for a living, and had encouraged me every step of the way.  She believed in me, and had no doubt that I will succeed someday.  I wish I could have her here to witness my journey.

     I have been having shit luck finding another slot technician job.  Only one interview and a ton of rejection letters.  I never thought I'd be in this position, because I have over 17 years experience in that field.  The COVID has really fucked up my life this year.  Meanwhile, I am going to just collect my unemployment, study, and trade. 

     I am starting anew this week for my mom, and I am going to get my head back into the game.  I think this break might have been a blessing.  I have had an ear to the markets the past couple months, and it has been brutal from what I've heard.  I will mostly study these first couple of weeks to ease back in.  Hopefully things won't be so crazy when I jump back in.  I am looking forward to it!