I have had a crazy couple of weeks.  I found out that my casino was going to open at the end of June, and I thought that the odds were good that I'd get called back.  Unfortunately they only called back 8 guys.  I'm number 9, haha.  I hope that the demand is there, because I will be the next one called back.

     When I get called back to work, I will most likely be on graveyard shift, which will be a big adjustment for me. It's been almost 15 years since I worked that shift.  I have also thought a lot about how I am going to juggle trading with working a full time job.  I will most likely miss the market open, but there are afternoon opportunities I can take advantage of.  I will more than likely have to work weekends, so I will have my days off to trade as well.  On slow days at work it will be easy for me to study on my laptop or read books.

     I have been anxious to start a routine, but it is impossible right now with everything so uncertain.  I have been limiting my trading a lot because of this, as I feel really high strung and emotional about the whole thing.  I have been trying to concentrate on studying.  When I look at the markets each day at market open, I get so overwhelmed with all of the plays.  I am like a deer in headlights!  I feel a strong desire to trade though, so I think it is just a matter of me getting over my fear.  I am having a hard time with that lately.  My mom went so far as to question my choice to pursue trading at all, but I won't give up on it.  I think it's normal to feel anxious during these times, and I believe that it will pass.  I will be stronger because of it.

     I am still very happy with being a member of the Millionaire Challenge.   I am learning a lot every week, and it's comforting to know that I have plenty of time to study at my own pace now that I am a lifetime member.  I started watching Tim Grittani's "Trading Tickers" this week.  The first part was so helpful.  I love that he went over how he had issues with emotional trading at first too.  He is so relatable, and I find myself enjoying the DVD so much that I am amazed when a couple of hours have passed.  When I first started watching the DVD, I was daunted by the 28 hour runtime.  Now it doesn't seem too bad, haha!

     I have been enjoying Mark Croock's Evolved Trader service as well.  I made over $230 conservatively following him on alerts the past two weeks.  I have been keeping my positions small because I am learning how to make those types of trades.

     I am feeling major guilt for following someone into a trade, which is a BIG NO-NO!!  I haven't entered the trades blindly though.  I always check the chart, the catalyst, and the price action before I do.  There were a couple of alerts that I didn't follow because I didn't feel right about them.  I had one where I missed out, and another where I was right.

     I followed him into a call options trade on a mask play, $APT, which was a disaster.  I held it over the weekend, and noticed weakness after hours on Friday.  I worried about it the whole weekend, and sure enough the stock fell on Monday.  I was down over $200, but I made myself wait until I could sell into strength, so my actual loss was $150.  It sapped me of my will to trade for the day, so I didn't hop into the $GLD option trade alert made later that morning.  I watched it, but I didn't see any movement.  I told myself I would buy the next morning if I felt right about it.  I must have still been feeling the pain the next day, because I had the chance to buy $GLD calls at $0.50 at open and I didn't pull the trigger.  Luckily I didn't, because nothing happened.  I think working on my emotions is going to be the hardest part of this learning experience for me.  I guess it's better than being overly aggressive, though.  At least it will be easier for me to protect my account from blowing up!