First trading day of 2021 2 small position trades but followed patterns and had a game plan. I can do this if I follow rules and study

Last two weeks of December I crashed. One big loss turned into two turned into four. I lost all my profits plus $1200 of my own money. I started guessing I stopped following patterns I basically went fulltilt. My head was not in the game, my personal life was a mess I stop studying and I lost hard. This is an about giving excuses i’m posting this to hopefully remind myself when you can’t focus don’t trade. I almost gave up I close my STT account and I was about to transfer all my money out of my E*TRADE. I haven’t traded in over a week or even looked at the market. Today is New Year’s Day I woke up in a fucking parking lot in my work truck and realized how miserable I am. My family is at home without me and I’m on the road fixing that situation is the reason I started trading in the first place I want to better my life. I’m going to re-open my STT account start studying again and I will make this work!

11/30/2030 It’s been a month. I’ve had ugly wins good loses missed countless plays and make mistakes. Cutting loses quickly is rule #1 and it’s kept me in the game. I am green 1041.40 for the month. I need to keep studying and work harder. I want out of this fucking truck. I can and I will do this. Learn learn and learn some more.

11/32020. Starting balance between two accounts 4614.83 I am a part-time newbie trader. I have not made a trade all week because I was afraid of the market pre election. I have more money invested in training videos than I have made in profits, and obviously overall I am down. The point of posting so I can learn What Is working best for me. My Long term goal is toYes out of my over the road trucking career. My short-term goal is to learn from what I am doing right and learn from what I’m doing wrong. I’m going to get upset I’m going to stumble I must realize with my work schedule I am going to miss plays. I cannot jump into a trade I’m not prepared for it! Learn learn learn!!!

@Crpalmieri just became a fully transparent trader today!