Well, a year has passed and this is my update. Barely made profits because of my emotions, flip flopping on what i wanna do ( now its options ) and just not being able to trade because im so fucking busy working. I feel super envious on other traders ( you know the big names right now ) who could just purely focus on trading or make the time to be there ( college students like matt and so on ) or get tons of money from your parents and move to only focus on trading ( kellogg ) and simply put

I don't have that as im too fucking busy working for $600 a week to pay the bills barely. Its so disheartening to see how little I've progressed while others have done so much more, And yes i can't stop comparing myself, I NEED a baseline to see how im doing compared to others and right now its shit. It just sucks to see traders make 5 or 6 figures and i make pennies and dont have the time to work on my dream because of all my shitty circumstances.

And It's not even that i CANT make it, i know so fucking well deep down i CAN but all this working and other shit that takes away from the markets is what hurts the most and is just delaying my future wealth to finally be fucking free and live the life i want. Anyways i guess this is life and unfortunately this is the hand i was dealt. Sorry its so depressing, im really upset at how slow things are moving and im just really sad with no motivation to do anything. Oh well, hopefully next year i ca

I can come back with something better. Good luck