I managed to turn my $2,700 account into $1,000 with just a few simple supernova aleart trades. I now know that supernovas die. They just die... Short selling is something I never took the opportunity to try. But "if" I would have sold all my trades short I wouldn't be hurting right now... I have too many questions. More questions than I can possibly post. I feel like an absolute failure. After 3 years my originally 12k account has been reduced to $1000.

I have little left to loose now. .. well, I have $1,000 and an 8x30 trailer to live in and I make a hell of a lot more money as a part-time Starbucks barista making minimum wage than I do in the stock market that's for damn sure. If there's anything I've learned it's that I'm absolutely terrified!!!!! to put one more f*****g penny into the stock market. I've been mulling over what I wanna say here since 2:30 A.M. now.  I have asked myself a thousand times how I managed to do such an awful job? It sure is amazing what I've learnedand.

I'm just going to be honest.. I feel hopeless...

I'm trying not to beat myself up too bad. I'm only 32 years old. But I feel like after 3 years of learning, I should know better.. These stocks are manipulated and public investors are being ripped off one person at a time. It's beyond me on who is doing it? or how it works? My biggest obstacle is knowing where to go from here? I feel like my smartest option would be to quit and take my thousand dollars and never look back at the stock market again. That's not what I want to do... That won't make me happy. 

With tears in my eyes, what I'm asking for here is some encouragement or wisdom? I know that being short bias is not always the answer but I'm beginning to feel like it's the only thing that works.